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The title of this article is ADDICTION: MY FATHER AND ME with the picture of a young man addicted to alcohol and cigarettes with a dark background.

God gave my father many gifts. He was intelligent, handsome and physically strong. In his youth, he was “tough,” and yet he knew the words of the Bible as well as anyone I have ever met. He could speak fluently — without notes — intelligently and, often, wisely. But my father was addicted to nicotine, hard liquor, and gambling.

Burning cigar on glass with cognac on old wooden table

In my earliest memories, my father smoked — first unfiltered Camels, then filtered Camels and, later, Pall Malls. When he discovered that he could buy a non-smokers insurance policy if he smoked cigars, he switched to Rum Soaked Crooks and, later, Bering Imperial Cigars. Today, 25 Bering Imperials sell for $96.25.

Dad had a champagne taste, but he had no budget. He smoked from the moment he woke up in the morning until he went to bed at night. He showered with a lit cigar. If he swam in a pool, he swam with a lit cigar. When my father's first grandson was born, someone told my sister that the child favored my father. “Does he have a cigar in his mouth?” she asked.

Alcoholic holding a glass of alcohol next to an empty bottle

My father's trouble with alcohol began when he was sixteen and left home for a year. Later, he decided he wanted to preach, and he overcame his thirst for alcohol for some time. By the time I was in high school, he had begun to drink more and more. He favored Scotch — the Johnny Walker Red Label. He would only have “one” drink at night, but that “one” was refreshed over and over. When he drank, he would call me lazy and worthless, suggesting that I would never amount to anything. I knew the alcohol was talking, but it was still painful to hear.

As for gambling, my father preferred the horses frequenting Bay Meadows, a track near our home in San Mateo. He enjoyed Las Vegas from time to time, and who knows what else. If you gamble long enough, the house always wins. My father gambled long enough.

A horse race at Saratoga Race Course

I detested smoke from cigarettes and cigars and suffered from asthma as a small child. As I grew older, I pleaded with my father to quit smoking, but he could not do it.

Meanwhile, my father's alcohol problem became unbearable. In the late 1980s, we intervened, persuading him to enter an alcohol treatment program in Minneapolis. He quit drinking for a while, but soon he was again a slave to alcohol. I don't know that my father ever tried to quit gambling. As in the song — “Papa was a rolling stone” when my father died, “all he left me was alone.”

A view of Roulette and piles of gambling chips on a table in a casino

In his life, my father suffered pain and grief. His mother and father had died of tuberculosis by the time he was seven years old. Two of his older sisters died from tuberculosis by 1949. Many people loved my father and would have done anything for him. His choices made no sense to me. Whenever I asked his advice, his counsel was wise — but he did not follow his own advice.

Jesus teaches that “everyone who commits sin is a slave of sin” (John 8:34 NASB). In my father's early life, drinking was his choice, but once he passed a certain point, he became a slave to alcohol — and he could not stop drinking or smoking or gambling. The answer was clear — turn to God in faith. But faith requires humility, and my father was a proud man.

The Bible warns us, “Everyone who is proud in heart is an abomination to the Lord” (Proverbs 16:5) and “Pride goeth before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18). My father was determined to live life his way — as he had chosen — without counting the cost to his health, his family, or his God.

I am my father's son, yet God expects something more of me. I cannot blame my father for who I am. God expects me to learn from my father's mistakes and be a better man than he was.

God showed mercy to King Nebuchadnezzar, who did many things in his ignorance. But God showed no mercy to his son, King Belshazzar. Indeed, the prophet Daniel delivered the message of God to Belshazzar, reminding him of all that happened to his father, and then added, “Yet you, his son Belshazzar, have not humbled your heart even though you knew all this, but you have exalted yourself against the Lord of heaven … You praised the gods of silver and gold, of bronze, iron, wood, and stone, which do not see, hear or understand, but the God in whose hand are your life-breath and all your ways, you have not glorified” (Daniel 5:22, 23).

A stop sign to tell us to stop addictions

I have avoided some of the sins of my father, but other sins have been more challenging. The Bible tells us to take every thought captive, to eat and drink in moderation and to control every physical passion. I love to eat and recently found myself becoming addicted to diet Coke.

Humility, trust in God, accountability, and prayer, are necessary for self-control (or temperance). They are — inevitably — a daily battle. I discipline my body and enslave it, Paul wrote, so that, after I have preached to others, I myself will not be lost (1 Corinthians 9:27).

That call to self-control terrified Felix. You know what? It scares me, too.

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